One post A year. I guess, this is the right time for me to write.
Again, this is the post for myself 2 years perhaps in the future. I dont know where you are now. and what are you doing right now, are married? Are single? and working right now?
You are successful now arent you? you are happy now arent you? I hope all the answers are yes.
Dont you forget what you feel right now. You already done your VIVA after waiting so long for more than 2 years. and yes, you are in the correction phase for 3 months. I hope you not forget that what do you feel right now, you're not happy.
Today, the day you declared that the thesis you've been written for 2 years and more is totally useless for you now. Today, you feel like listening to others is totally bullshit. Today the day you said that you regret of anything you've left behind. Why today? Because today you almost lost everything you have. No, that's not what you meant when you write this. Not everything. but that's how you feel.
In the last post, kau tulis yang tujuan utama kau sekarang ialah nak dapatkan master thesis, to finish everything you've started. You resign form 2.5k salary to do the writing and been jobless for almost 6 months now. you will never believe how you really survived with this. It's rezeki,
Allah allowed you to finish what you wanted so much. Allah gives you so much free time to do whatever you want. and today, mashaAllah you said you regret everything.
WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU WILL BE DOING NOW IF YOU NOT DOING MASTER SEKARANG? THE ROAD NOT TAKEN? WHAT THE HELL. THERE'S NO SUCH THING
Dont you forget how miserable you think this 2019 will ended for you. YES you will be graduated and for now, you have nowhere to go except home. and you bersyukur sangat sangat for that.
You always told yourself, how lucky you are, how happy you are to have your family back. To have time to spent, but it turns out that's not the case. Kau tak pernah bersyukur apa pun. padahal Allah dah makbulkan doa kau.
Kepada engkau yang di masa depan, bersyukur lah dengan apa yang kau ada sekarang. Apa lagi teruk daripada life kau sekarang? tak, jangan bandingkan diri kau dgn orang lain. bandingkan diri kau dengan diri kau yang sebelum ni, mana lagi better?
kau stuck dgn boss lama kau? or now, doing nothing at all? bukan ke ni yg kau nak yang kau pilih?.
Yourself from past seriously will be so much happier now to know that she is almost finishing masters and doing great right now by having good portfolios and of course doing a lot of interviews and not really nervous and did great on your PTEM presentation. SHE so much happier to know this from past, that she almost have the suicidal thinking about how meaningless her life. But if she knew she will be here, she will be strong wait for her day to come. But she never know, until today.
So hafizah, no matter what road you taken, do not what you feel about today.
crying while writing this, and wondering what kind of live will you have next week, next month and next year, or even you are expecting emails for tomorrow.
you will never know what lies ahead infornt of you.
BERSABAR lah hafizah. bangun tahjud, istikharah , and insyaAllah everything going well for you in the future. okay?
So, see you next year. with scroll master, double stripes robe, and you will be successful in your work, you travel overseas a lot and you gain money a lot and you are happier than now, you are more grown up and mature, you giving pocket money to your parents, you buy a house and car at the end of 2020, you are calmer, you are still beautiful and confident in yourself, you are definitely better thousand than now.
See you 2020 Hafizah.
Again, this is the post for myself 2 years perhaps in the future. I dont know where you are now. and what are you doing right now, are married? Are single? and working right now?
You are successful now arent you? you are happy now arent you? I hope all the answers are yes.
Dear Hafizah,
Dont you forget what you feel right now. You already done your VIVA after waiting so long for more than 2 years. and yes, you are in the correction phase for 3 months. I hope you not forget that what do you feel right now, you're not happy.
Today, the day you declared that the thesis you've been written for 2 years and more is totally useless for you now. Today, you feel like listening to others is totally bullshit. Today the day you said that you regret of anything you've left behind. Why today? Because today you almost lost everything you have. No, that's not what you meant when you write this. Not everything. but that's how you feel.
In the last post, kau tulis yang tujuan utama kau sekarang ialah nak dapatkan master thesis, to finish everything you've started. You resign form 2.5k salary to do the writing and been jobless for almost 6 months now. you will never believe how you really survived with this. It's rezeki,
Allah allowed you to finish what you wanted so much. Allah gives you so much free time to do whatever you want. and today, mashaAllah you said you regret everything.
WHAT DO YOU THINK YOU WILL BE DOING NOW IF YOU NOT DOING MASTER SEKARANG? THE ROAD NOT TAKEN? WHAT THE HELL. THERE'S NO SUCH THING
Dont you forget how miserable you think this 2019 will ended for you. YES you will be graduated and for now, you have nowhere to go except home. and you bersyukur sangat sangat for that.
You always told yourself, how lucky you are, how happy you are to have your family back. To have time to spent, but it turns out that's not the case. Kau tak pernah bersyukur apa pun. padahal Allah dah makbulkan doa kau.
Kepada engkau yang di masa depan, bersyukur lah dengan apa yang kau ada sekarang. Apa lagi teruk daripada life kau sekarang? tak, jangan bandingkan diri kau dgn orang lain. bandingkan diri kau dengan diri kau yang sebelum ni, mana lagi better?
kau stuck dgn boss lama kau? or now, doing nothing at all? bukan ke ni yg kau nak yang kau pilih?.
Yourself from past seriously will be so much happier now to know that she is almost finishing masters and doing great right now by having good portfolios and of course doing a lot of interviews and not really nervous and did great on your PTEM presentation. SHE so much happier to know this from past, that she almost have the suicidal thinking about how meaningless her life. But if she knew she will be here, she will be strong wait for her day to come. But she never know, until today.
So hafizah, no matter what road you taken, do not what you feel about today.
crying while writing this, and wondering what kind of live will you have next week, next month and next year, or even you are expecting emails for tomorrow.
you will never know what lies ahead infornt of you.
BERSABAR lah hafizah. bangun tahjud, istikharah , and insyaAllah everything going well for you in the future. okay?
So, see you next year. with scroll master, double stripes robe, and you will be successful in your work, you travel overseas a lot and you gain money a lot and you are happier than now, you are more grown up and mature, you giving pocket money to your parents, you buy a house and car at the end of 2020, you are calmer, you are still beautiful and confident in yourself, you are definitely better thousand than now.
See you 2020 Hafizah.
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